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Ajé is dead.
I took her in to the vet this morning because she'd stopped eating entirely, and she'd been sneezing blood. There, it was pretty much confirmed that it was a cancerous mass eating away at the right side of her face; her gum was too raw even for light pressure, her eye was dying, and she couldn't smell. She also showed early signs of a heart murmur, and she'd lost three pounds in as many months.
Essentially, the only option was a panel of really invasive tests and procedures that might not have done anything for her, and I didn't want to put her through it. It came down to quality-of-life, and I don't think that a mad scrabble for any form of life, no matter how uncomfortable, is necessarily the best option – especially not with a creature who can't understand what's happening, or why they're being put through it. So I made the decision to have her euthanized.
And... that's that, I suppose. The world continues on as it always has; it's just lost one cat. I'm still processing. I knew it was coming, I just didn't know when; I've had some chance to prepare myself for it. I wish she'd had a better end, but life decides these things.
I took her in to the vet this morning because she'd stopped eating entirely, and she'd been sneezing blood. There, it was pretty much confirmed that it was a cancerous mass eating away at the right side of her face; her gum was too raw even for light pressure, her eye was dying, and she couldn't smell. She also showed early signs of a heart murmur, and she'd lost three pounds in as many months.
Essentially, the only option was a panel of really invasive tests and procedures that might not have done anything for her, and I didn't want to put her through it. It came down to quality-of-life, and I don't think that a mad scrabble for any form of life, no matter how uncomfortable, is necessarily the best option – especially not with a creature who can't understand what's happening, or why they're being put through it. So I made the decision to have her euthanized.
And... that's that, I suppose. The world continues on as it always has; it's just lost one cat. I'm still processing. I knew it was coming, I just didn't know when; I've had some chance to prepare myself for it. I wish she'd had a better end, but life decides these things.
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Date: 2011-10-09 09:21 pm (UTC)From:I love you, and I'm sorry for your loss. I understand you need to process stuff in your own way, but if you ever need me, I'm out here for you, okay? Always.
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Date: 2011-10-10 12:15 am (UTC)From:no subject
Date: 2011-10-10 01:32 am (UTC)From:I will think of Ajé today, and thank her for being a good companion.
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Date: 2011-10-10 03:39 am (UTC)From:no subject
Date: 2011-10-10 05:54 am (UTC)From:She was a good cat. And I know we're all going to miss her. And I know I've said this many times for many different things, but if you need anything at all, don't hesitate to ask. Or poke me on AIM, or throw a thing at my head, or anything. I'm not entirely sure I'm getting across the sentiment I want to, here, but at the very least: *headbomp* <3
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Date: 2011-10-11 08:06 pm (UTC)From:I remember how I used to lay on the floor in your living room, playing video games, and she'd come over and clean my hair. And how she was an excellent pillow.
You and Ajé are in my thoughts.