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I did finally convince myself to join an online game for Blood on the Clocktower, largely because the Unofficial Discord started doing beginner-focused games.
It was utterly overwhelming, and a ton of fun! I enjoyed it so much more than I thought I would, given how confusing and fast-paced it felt. My team won, and I was actually instrumental in my team's victory, but that was more to do with some stunning good luck than actual skill or strategy. XD I wandered bass-ackwards into victory, but it still felt very good.
( I don't expect anyone to follow this story; I'm mostly jotting it down for myself. )
And that was my first game of Blood on the Clocktower! I currently have a 100% win record, which I expect will quickly and dramatically go off the rails forthwith.
I found it hectic and confusing and stressful, but in a eustress kind of way. I was surprised at how little anxiety I felt around the social aspects; talking to strangers is typically an intensely awkward experience for me, but I think the fact that we were all there to have a fun time and untangle a big puzzle took the focus off "These people are going to JUDGE MY WORTH AS A HUMAN BEING and I will FOREVER LABOR UNDER THE WEIGHT OF THEIR REGARD". I did freeze up a couple times; a couple times completely blanked on how words and communication functioned. But, unusually for me, I managed not to dwell on having done so.
All in all, I had a great time.
It was utterly overwhelming, and a ton of fun! I enjoyed it so much more than I thought I would, given how confusing and fast-paced it felt. My team won, and I was actually instrumental in my team's victory, but that was more to do with some stunning good luck than actual skill or strategy. XD I wandered bass-ackwards into victory, but it still felt very good.
( I don't expect anyone to follow this story; I'm mostly jotting it down for myself. )
And that was my first game of Blood on the Clocktower! I currently have a 100% win record, which I expect will quickly and dramatically go off the rails forthwith.
I found it hectic and confusing and stressful, but in a eustress kind of way. I was surprised at how little anxiety I felt around the social aspects; talking to strangers is typically an intensely awkward experience for me, but I think the fact that we were all there to have a fun time and untangle a big puzzle took the focus off "These people are going to JUDGE MY WORTH AS A HUMAN BEING and I will FOREVER LABOR UNDER THE WEIGHT OF THEIR REGARD". I did freeze up a couple times; a couple times completely blanked on how words and communication functioned. But, unusually for me, I managed not to dwell on having done so.
All in all, I had a great time.
